Hai Shaabash!!

Hai shaabash …. It's a deadly dialogue delivered in perfection by our very own shatrughan Sinha whenever he is elated…. A few months ago, me and some of my roomies were enjoying the episodes of funny men of laughter challenge on youtube… the dialogue was delivered and everyone went bonkers… it was the word on mouth everyday… be it anger..be it sarcasm..or be it extreme joy when someone else bought the groceries….
After a few days… tats posted this mail to a few people that we should form a community so that everyone should be in touch with a click… whatever the information be..regarding the money to be collected for rent… responsibilities allotted for household works…and utter disrespect towards the cooking style of our master technician mambo … a yahoo group was created titled hai shaabash… I had this eerie feeling that it wont last long and will just be another dead ppol after a few weeks… but am amazed to see the level of participation and the information exchanged on it ..its increasing…day by day… so much of interaction is there that we don’t miss each other though we have mostly separated..tats in gurgaon..me in delhi.. juggu in noida..cheeka in…welll … that doesn’t matter…. Hitesh and tj in some remote sector.. he he … but the bond still gluing us is hai shaabash….
Coming to the topics discussed on hai shaabash….. it can be anything from what mambo cooked today and how lazy he has become watching mahabharat on zee Bengali every night at 2 … to… the impact of Taliban on US and India ( sorry guys exaggerated a bit to drag the group in a serious zone)….
The topics are discussed with zeal and enthusiasm… lets take an example of hitesh … when he is making a statement it looks like he is fighting the paki’s on the border… and side by side as stressing and emotional as the mother of hero in a senti hindi movie… its fun to see his enthusiasm cut short by a loud “O WAA YAAR” by some other member who just ridicules his point and leaves him fuming…
This group has survived the recession threats… the parting homes… the boring jobs… morning pangs…afternoon naps… and boss lookouts… its going strong… more than ever…
All the participants are not only connected via words..but the emotions behind each and every line is very well understood by each one of us…. We can imagine how hiesh must be reacting when he sarcastically says “bahot sai”..and when juggu says..”banta hai”… when virat writes those big sentences when he is pissed off… when tats get super angry and hyper..and types all the shit… we know how his face looks like… and that’s fun… identifying the emotions behind the words……

I have so much more to write.. but I have to attend a so called meeting.. which will be about deciding when to conduct next meeting… with the added accessories of tea,coffee,yawns,snores,droopy eyes…and god knows what else….

Anyways………………. I hope we all stay on path of success…going by the tag line of HAI SHAABASH….amen

chelsea after hiddink!!

when the going gets tough the tough gets goin.... i so believed this saying ... but such is my passion towards the blues that i began to doubt the saying rather than the team itself... it all started after scholari seated himself in the chair well warmed by avram .... a few wins and it made me sure that they forgot the penalty shootout last year... but than, something went wrong... they fumbled... they looked drowsy.. they drew when they shud ve won .. and lost when they shudve SURELY won... i thought it to be another "patch" .. but the patch continued to be so long that it ruined the whole dress... there was unrest ... i even skipped some games and preferred drinking coffee instead... the crowd was silent.. the blue was turning pale... then scholari was sacked... i was wondering... who else it can be... jose wont come.. scholari was sacked.. but than the last option in my mind .. GUUS HIDDINK... there was something about him... the way he watches them play ... the keen eyes following every pass in every corner... since then till last night..barca against chelsea.. its a reformed team.... its a team... they are fighting... they are winning.. they are playing to win ... crowd is cheering once again since jose left.. they know something is in store for them... the pride... i am not thinking about The champs league or the FA cup or the league.. but the pride..the respect... but what after guus ... what if he leaves after FA cup finale... will they find someone who ll fill the team up with unity and mutual appreciation rather than individual heroism... it was like losing half of chelsea when jose left .. guus has refilled that spot.. it ll be sad to see it halved again... i would like to see JT crying again... holdin the european champions league trophy high up.... and it would b eso appropriate to say that time.... when the goin gets tough..the tough gets going....

The other half

There he lies within..
Within the happiest of heart
In the darkest of corner
Somewhere he found his abode

There he hides inside..
Besides the brightest fellow
Away from the shadow
In view of their smile

There he hears them all
Hears them all laughing
Like a killer on prowl
For the moment he searches

There he stands still
Watching them walk together
His legs are free and he wants to walk
chooses to tremble still instead

There he cries again
Amongst the roars of joy
He wants to dance,he wants to sing
but he wants to move away from eyes

There he mourns painfully
With his only friend sorrow
Waiting to hold a stranger’s hand
Afraid of being left alone

There he shivers
For dangers to come
For hands to kill
For talks to slit

There he grieves
For a restless mind
For the words so sharp
For the faces so deceitful

There he is ..alone in woods
Alone with crowd
Alone with you
Alone with me

There he is .. a fainted glow
In sunshine so bright
In light so divine
In shine that blinds

Here’s his end
As silent as death
as trivial as him
as ghastly as life

all I wonder, in times I think
why is he like this?
why he cries with dry eyes
why he leaves to come back again?

Top 20 tracks all time favourite

1.Smells like teen spirit - Nirvana
2.Like a stone - Audioslave
3.Fear Of the Dark - Iron maiden
4.Hallowed be thy name - Iron maiden
5.People are strange - The Doors
6.Man who sold the world - Nirvana
7.Breaking the law - Judas Priest
8.Electric Funeral - Black Sabbath
9.Metal Messiah - Judas priest
10.Reflection - Tool
11.Schism - Tool
12.Jambi - Tool
13.Roadhouse Blues- The Doors
14.Sun goes Down - David Jordan
15.You know you're right - Nirvana
16.Ya raha - Rachid Taha
17.Counting flowers on the wall - Statler brothers
18.10000 days - Tool
19.Hard Sun - Eddie vedder
20.Society - Eddie vedder

rise again..

can dreams be real...i asked my sleep
are stars for sale.... i asked sky
is life worthy.. i asked death
do i need love...i asked myself

i marked my words..i believed my soul
i wont need no one ..i will go alone
tears in eyes..but i wasnt crying
i never knew if i was living or dying

words escaped me when i tried to speak
thoughts were leaving, i was turning in a freak
was it a a lie ...was it an error
was it the peace.. was it the terror

i surrendered to my defeat
i perished to my laughter
i butchered my sanity
i disobeyed my character

i was searching for her... to show me the way
i was looking for her ... to turn night into day
i prayed like a beggar.from dusk till dawn
i begged like a hooker all night long

when i saw you that day.. i felt the shine
you didnt look at me.. maybe you were shy
i forgot myself..i forgot the world
i asked people to wake me up

my life was standing a yard away
my pulses began to dance and sway
words wer no longer choked
thoughts were beginning to unchain
it was the truth..i got the clue
it was peace..it was you!!

here today i rise again
i am pushing the defeat
i am embracing the laughter
i am gaining my sanity
i am getting the character

be with me..am getting my life
be with me i promise i ll thrive
be with me.. i ll be the one
be with me. i need you to live!!!!!

dreams are real...when you are no more asleep
stars are there..when sky is black
life is worthy.. if you forget about death
i am being loved.. i can feel that!!

sometimes....

sometimes i feel
are their enough stars in the sky
sometimes i cant sleep
the horizon is too bright

sometimes i wonder
is love still alive
sometimes i look
for a corner to hide

sometimes i believe
if happiness survives
sometimes i doubt
if smiles are alright

sometimes i think
is it fine to be sane
sometimes i am living
in this happy pain

sometimes i ask
for a perfect reason
sometimes i beg
to end this season

sometimes i write
to let out my poison
sometimes i dont
to drink it and hold on!!!!

reborn...

its a long way, long way back
its too dark to see....too dark to track
walking lonely, pain in my eyes
i cant search out….truth from the lies

its a long way, long way back
its too late.. too late to pack
singing slowly, voice choked
I cant speak now….am so shocked

World is taken over, run away
How far you’ll go…. You’re trapped anyway
They rape the peace… breed the violence
Some roar in ecstasy…. Some weep in silence

I can listen to the souls crying, piercing my ears
Should I submit … should I rebel… ask the tears
I stand alone on this road again
i ll suffer it all …. Let it rain

it’s a long way, long way back
I know am late, I know its dark
i ll run for freedom, I ll sing for life
I ll search for the sunshine in this dark snow!!!